Sitting here
I am quiet as I watch the world go by
Some are interested only in their
lives Or what they may get from
others.
There are those few who stop and
look,
Ask questions,appearing interested
Looking beyond the replies into
what lies beneath.
And sometimes they see the
darkness, the vulnerability
A reflection they realise, of
themselves and they hurry off.
And then there are those who open
their eyes,
Scrutinise with curiosity and
confusion and look at me from
every angle.
I remain more silent and still under
their inspection,
For my strength and vulnerability
are a paradox to them,
An enigma of defence and defiance.
They approach and retreat but
continue to engage
Talking, releasing, understanding
my need to appear strong and be
strong -when inside I’m crying out
in fear and with anxiety for reprisal
and rejection, for retaliation and
harm …
They understand my need for
control and yet, to submit to
something so much stronger than I,
that I quake and shake internally
that eventually my tears of
frustration and disappointment
flow as tears of joy that I am being
contained.
Once safe and secure on my perch, I
thank them for recognising my
bravery, for seeing that indeed in
sitting here naked before all- that I
am indeed facing my fears.
It is only whilst I sit here that I see
the truth of what Fisher once said,
that the greatest part of a road trip
isn’t arriving at your destination.
It’s all the wild stuff that happens
along the way.
Here’s to embracing the fears that
mean I stride out and face them, to
those that look beyond the facade of
self management and see the real
me, my darkness and light – and
hold it all. I thank you.
Hector said:
The last time I was fully naked in front of someone I was a child. Deeply inspirational.
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Jazz said:
Hector – I thank you…you’ve understood …
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There is ALWAYS time for coffee said:
Beautifully written and it shows how there are people of all types who interact with us. There is a need to be thankful to those that stay a while, ponder and question. For they are those that can hold and support us as we strive for the courage to rage against the night.
We are all vulnerable as we reach out to grasp at the daylight. We must put aside our sword and shield as we welcome the sun but there will always be a darkness willing to press us to retreat. It is for us to fight against the darkness with our open arms and our vulnerability. Only then will the sun clear the skys and show us a brighter future. We need those that truly see us to hold us as we continue the fight.
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Jazz said:
Thank you for this comment – it’s both motivational and insightful. I love the phrase ‘courage to rage against the night’ – I wish I’d thought of it 😉
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eroticmusings said:
given my day, this has me in sweet tears … lovely
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Jazz said:
thank you, coming from you this means a lot.
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eroticmusings said:
you are very kind!
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eroticmusings said:
Say do you mind if I use your picture to inspire a poem. She is just elegant in her posture and poise … simply stunning.
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Jazz said:
Thank you for asking … Glad she’s inspiring as she inspired me too.
Enjoy and write x
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